Ya Allah!

another sad day in my beloved city, I pray for those innocent souls that been lost and Injured today Due the Mortar shell that had fell behind my house, and many other places. this country shed a lot tears and suffer a lot of pain.
Ya Allah!
we only asking your help, my life, my family, my country all in your hand, help us!! and protect those who need you the most.





Life started with cry, not with smile.

babies born with tears to welcome their new start.

from the beginning they knew they won’t live a perfect life.

but still, with the warm they feel in their mothers arms, every things will disappear, and it will convert to smiles.

happiness can cover pain.

that is how we live our lives.

whenever it becomes soo hard and it can’t be bearable to live.

glance of light will erase all this pain lines.

it share the same path..

walking side by side..

the tears and the smiles..

that is how we live, this is our life.

Letter to myself

Dear me….

you had a very colorful life to live

with so many choices

you got your share of happiness

and same for you sadness

your heart felled with laugh and joy

as your eyes shade tears when cry

you succeed in things you do

while you tried the bitter taste of the fall

you walked on a way that no one had walked before you

cause only that way was meant for you

you had some loses and you achieve some wins

dreams that crashes to build another dreams

life wasn’t perfect, and sadly that how it will

i know you walked a lot, and ahead of you there a lot still

life never end with a fail, hope can rise your will

i won’t promise you that thing will get easy

but you should have more faith in your self

cause life is like food flavor

each one had special taste to make the meal full


don’t forget your not alone

but you path have to walked with your own steps

trees always raise their head high
but before they alone have to climb up from the dirt


The strange path ・*:.。.Part Two.。.:*・

The strange path ・*:.。.Part One.。.:*・

Danger?! My Life?!

For a second her entire world stop moving, her mind become blank and her whole body turn into a block of ice. Is that a joke?!

Is he making fun of me or something?!

Who is playing this ugly prank on me?!

Without feeling her body moved a step backward, she wanted to run away, she wanted to scream help me!

“Y… you kidding me… right?!, I… I have had enough of this… I want to go home… I want to leave this place”

Her reaction didn’t change anything, that man still standing in silence watching her, how can she run away from him.

“Phona… hear me, what am I telling you is no joke, I have summoned you here to tell you this reality and to save your life”

This even makes her more scared but for some reason, somehow this man, his voice, there something special about it.

Although she wanted to run his word made her want to know the truth.

“Well… what is that important thing that I should know and why my life… why is it in danger?!”

A heavy wave of silence cover the moment that she was waiting to hear his answer, it felt like it will never end.

‘Actually … I can’t tell you that… bu… .’

‘What?! …. Don’t play with me … what is it that you want to tell me?!’

She was soo much angry; she wanted to shout on his face, it was like all her fear turned into a big amount of angry.

But then, when he saw her furies like that, he laughs with low voice and then…

‘You still the hot headed, aren’t you Phona?!’


What with this man?! And how… how he knows those things about me?!

Who are you stranger?!

This situation what so much confusing to Phona that she didn’t know what to say and fell in her own thoughts and question about this man.

But he breaks he thought line when he started to talk again

‘Listen Phona… I said I can’t tell you so, that why I have to show you, prepare Phona to what you will see’


Without notice and with a light touch from his finger a flash view shock Phona sights the light was soo strong that made her close her eyes.

And when she opens them, for a surprise she found herself in different place, but this time she recognizes this one.

What am I doing here?!

This is the collage that am trying to enter with my friend isn’t it?!

Why am I here?!

But everything looks normal, why did he bring her here.

“Gosh… That man! He made my heart sink, and then he brought me here! What with him?!”

Suddenly a sound appeared make her heart froze, she become like a stone.

That sound that cracks sound

“This can’t be happing…. ”

How could she forget a horrible sound like that?

The bridge, the cracked floor, the car, her parents.

This sound brings back all those images to her once again.

She felt that the ground under her feet is moving, the walls were falling.

Everything was falls apart.

But she couldn’t move, her lags were nailed down, her face become solid, her eyes opened widely.

“I  … this can’t be  … am going to die  … I  … can’t move”

The only thing that she could do was closing her eyes, waiting for her end.

Her heart was shouting, but her voice couldn’t reach the surface.

There is no one here to help her; no one can hear her voice.

Are she going die here like this, is this really her end.

“… mom… mommy!”

Unawares about what happens, every things stop, there are no more sounds… nothing.

She slowly opens her eyes, looking around to see what happen, but… she found herself back to that strange place, and that strange man also standing in front of her.

“W… What was that?! … What did you do to me?!”

Her tears was flooding all over her face, her body was shaking like a small leaf.

She wanted to hit him soo badly to make him feel how horrible what she felt.

‘Am sorry to make you go through this but  … I had to show you this before its late’


“What do you mean by late?! Am I… am I going to die like that?!”

‘I can’t tell you that… cause that not my place to know’

“Then what all this about”

She wanted him to explain this matter to her, this confusing thing that she been through.

But the view starts to get bluer in her eyes and a heavy fog cover her sight.

Sinking in this fog Phona started to shout calling that strange man, bit then she found herself sitting in front of her table again, the sun was raising and its morning.

She was sitting like she was before this entire crazy thing.

Is this a nightmare?! I guess I felt asleep when I was working last night.

Nightmare?! But it surly felt like the real thing, she even found her eyes were tearing.

Looking at the clock, she gets shocked by how late she was.

“Oh god! Am late, am late”

As fast as she can changed her cloth and prepare herself for the collage today is an important day.

After saying bye to her ant she head fast to the collage, by her was there was few stores and markets that sells variety things.

One of them got her attention and stops for a second to have a look.

Suddenly a reflection of a man standing next to her makes her flinch, and this not any man.

It’s the same one from her dreams, she turned around herself looking for where that reflect come from but nothing appear to be there.

Slowly she turn back to the store front glasses but the man reflect was already disappears.

Her heart was beating fast and her body was shaking, the whole nightmare run in her mind once again.

“I really must be tired to imagine things like this”

She shake her head the again move forward to her collage, but then she stopped, her heart was still beating, and her body just didn’t want to move any further.

Why is she that scare, it was only a nightmare, why she can’t forget it?

She has to move, she can’t pass this day.

But no matter how hard she tries shy can’t make herself move.

“What’s wrong with me, scared from a nightmare, what’s wrong with me?”

She decided to go back for now cause like this she will never be able to do the test any way, on her path there was a beautiful garden she sat on one of her seats and try to cool of her head, a laugh come out of her mouth.

“How weak am I, if a nightmare froze me like this … this really bad”

The sky was clear blue, and the smell of the nature relaxed her for a bit.

“I should go home and tell aunt that I couldn’t attend the exam today ….”

Heading back home, Phona was extremely disappointment of herself, she reach the home and opened the front door to find her ant rushing to her way the hugging her while crying

“Aunt… wha… why are you crying?!”

She was hugging her soo hard, like she was afraid to lose her.



 End of the secound part


Crises of the world

How can I ignore those sounds that goes then comes again

like a thunder when it shout but there no rain

irritated the silence of our nights and darker our days

filling the world with too many crises and much more sin

Tears dripping  like rivers watered the land bay

bloods that colored the skies with red rays

even when you try to not see a thing

your ear will surely hear there hiss

the hearts that hold the happiness once

turned to hold more and more pain

my world could you hear the pray

of a life that i have witness before

soon in front my eyes will end

The strange path ・*:.。.Part One.。.:*・

Hai all…

yesterday i was siting at my balcony listening to my favorite songs.

when a story cross my mind.

i picked up my Pencil (i only like to write with Pencils tho (─‿‿─)) and started to write it down on my notebook. 

well i used to write some short stories before but in my motherland languages.

so, this my first try in English.

and i only thought about it yesterday so, i don’t think it’s really big deal.

this is the first part (i was to sleepy to continue writing (ノ)´∀`(ヾ))

give me you Opinion.o(〃^▽^〃)o


The strange path …

It’s been a while since that day, whenever thing end.

When the world become dead, when it become with no color in her eyes.

It’s been a while and she still remembers every single second of it, she still sees it like it happening right now.

That horrible accident, the spark of the broken glass, the smell of the burning gas, the sound of the cold milt iron.

The last light of her mother’s eyes while she was falling off.

Even when she was dying she still worries about her.

At that moment, her mother said something but she couldn’t hear it because she was shock frozen, she couldn’t shout or even cry, her emotions become blank.

Every one talked about that sad accident.

When the bridge broke and a family car fall over the valley.

The mother has died in that accident and the father remain alive cause the care safety bellow and had been sent to the hospital where he fell in a coma for a moth then he died due his bad injury.

The only survivor was a 15 year girl was found on the side of the broken bridge, the witness said that the mother throw her daughter from the car door while the car was fallen but she couldn’t escape with her.

People felt sad and sorry for that girl for her lost while the whole accident kept repeating over and over on her head.

Her aunt toke the charge of raising her after that accident.

She was like a corps without a soul, the light in her eyes become fade, nothing matter to her any more, and her aunt had a hard time to make her back for a little bit to the living world.

A year after that she return to her studies and her school life, but still when the day of the accident come her soul become empty and the fact that she can’t see her mother any more or that she can’t say sorry after the fight they had on that day hunted her like a knife in her heart.

Day by day she lives her live with that memory, and day by day started to learn how to bear it.

It’s been 4 year since that tragedy accident aunt now phona has become a first year collage girl.

She decide to get into an art collage to become an artist since the drawing help her a lot to forget a little of her pain.

She made a few friends and started to blend more in society.

Little by little her aunt knows that she will pass through her bad feeling and helped her to open her heart again.

It’s a midnight now and Phona was preparing herself for her art collage entrance test.

She felt really tired but she made her best to do the work.

Tomorrow should be OK  she has to pass the test to get in that collage, and that the path that she chose for herself.

“Well I have to be fully prepared, nothing should be wrong for tomorrow” she said to herself.

After she finished her last touch on her painting she looked outside to see the full moon glowing in front of her, but somehow it seems like his color a little pit pale than its usual.

But well it maybe because the weather today she assume.

Her eyes slowly become heaver and she started to feel sleepy so, she sat down in front of her table and lent her head to the window.

Her eyes kept looking to the moon while the view become more fade, her eyes couldn’t stay open much longer and she surrender herself to the dream land fast.

When she opens her eyes the view around her was soo much surprising that made her head spin a little.

“Where am I?!”

“What is this place?!”

“And how did I ended up here?!”

Everything around her was strange; she found herself in place that she never seen before.

For her it looks like she was standing on the cloud.

She searches the place with her eyes to see if there something that can help her understand but nothing seems to be there.

Suddenly she notice a person shadow standing in the way side in front of her.

Her heart starts to beat really fast, her breath become heaver and a cold wave cross her entire body.

“What should I do?!”

“Why I ended up in this situation?!”

“Is this a dream, and who is that person?!”

Questions kept running in her head nonstop.

What should she do she asked herself, if she decided to run she will never know to where.

She doesn’t recognize any thing around her.

The shadow didn’t move so, she toke a deep breath and clear her mind.

“Maybe he is not that bad?!”

“Maybe he could help me out?!”

Step by step slowly she make her way to that shadow,  while he started to become more clear to her eyes, she saw a tall man with a long dark cape, his face was hidden under the cape hat so she didn’t see his details .

He didn’t make a single movement while she was approaching him.

“E… excuse… me sir…” her voice was shaking and she was really confuse already.

‘You’re really brave to get this close to some strange man’

His voice make her heart stopped for a second, she froze still and she lose her voice of fear,

Could he hurt her, what should she do, it was careless of her to get this close even though he never looked harmless.

‘Don’t worry… am not here to hurt you’

“Wha…” his voice right now seems familiar to her, who is this person.

 “Am… actually I guess am lost here, I don’t remember how I end up in this place, I believe this is some kind of mistake, Could you please help me?!”

She holds her hand tight while she waited for his replay.

‘Mistake?! Your suppose to be here, there is no mistake about that’

What is this man saying?! Suppose to be here? this is mistake.

“Wha….what are you saying?! How come it’s not mistake?! I have never seen this place before and unless it’s not dream it must be mistake”

She was trembling while she was talking and she hardly standing on her legs.

He must be notice that because he started to talk to her with more kind voice.

‘Phona… listen to me carefully, you’re here cause there something you should know, something really important’

Phona?! He called her by her name didn’t he?!

How possible could he know her name, who is this man?!

Moreover what the important thing that she should know?!

“H…how did you know my name?!, who are you?!”

Please tell me …

‘It doesn’t matter who am I, am here to warn you about something and that all I can tell you right now.’

Warn me?! What’s going on here?!

“What are you talking about?!”

‘Phona… look carefully to what I’ll show you, cause you life in danger Phona’

Danger?! My Life?!


Phona: the name of the main character, it’s a short name of Phonex


End of the first part



The strange path ・*:.。.Part Two.。.:*・

Let me have some rest.

Let me live my way like a butterfly

share the world what in-front of my sight

let my heart fly away from the pain

it’s not a lie it’s not a sin

along with the wind let my soul rise.

above the cloud where it always shine

the silence there it feel so nice

make me calm, make me forget the past.

Let me have some rest.


Words on paper

How it feels to see the world through someone else eyes ….

How it feels if you take the pain of your own lies …

will it make you before hurting someone to think twice…

let me tell you no one can run, in the end you will seize…


Hi again.. ( ´ ▽ ` )ノ

it’s been a while .. some time I don’t have the will to even talk to anyone.

i can’t believe how these days are passing by us, it’s like waking nightmare.

but believe it or not we have to stand even if it’s soo painful.

things that like happy ending or forever joy .. those are only in fairy tail.

yeep they are very nice to live in them but .. in some point we should wake up to the reality and face it.

it’s difficult, but it’s not impossible.

it will be hard to pass through if you pass it alone and more easy if there someone supporting you.




i guess am back again here, i got really bad days, but i know there always tomorrow.

keep up with me, wish you all luck.




when people push you too far and then ask you to come back, they don’t know that they ask the impossible.

when they start to no more see you, you start to slowly disappear.

When they start not caring about what you say, you’ll be guilty in there eyes with every thing.

to hold back your pain, you start to throw out all your feeling, to the point that you become halo from inside.

like an empty shell,  with no feeling, no more motive to move on.

how can you see the white things, if every thing is black.

even the light is hard to spot if it’s black night.

i don’t care what people say any more, cause no one care about what am saying from long time.

it’s hard enough, and i can’t take it any more.

so, don’t tell me how wrong my thinking is, cause no one see what i feel, every one guess it out.

today, next week or even year later no one will understand if they can’t see the truth with there eyes.

they will keep thinking bad of some people just cause they hate them, no mater how hard those people doing good.

no one know anyone for sure, they can’t read there heart or mind, so how can they judge them.

don’t they feel bad if they have been put in the same place and been judged.

am tired of all this, tired of all the world around me.

if it’s not god beside me i may been crashed and no one care.


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